The Path I Tread-1

An update about how my life's going. It's been three weeks since my college started, and I would say things are getting a hell lot better (this is especially for those to who have seen me catch the highly contagious I'm-more-miserable than you syndrome...) but as you might have guessed, yes, there's a but...internals next week...exams...*sigh*

The madness ensues, and I have no idea what to do. The books prescribed by the coll suck, and one of my reverred lecturers has gone backwards, teaching the most obscure lessons without teaching the basics, thereby making us bump into the door to the world of electronics repeatedly and getting concussions since we don't have the keys. Infact, she was so mind-numbing, I at one point started to hate the subject.

My methods of survival are as follows...testing my engineering abilities by manufacturing paper airplanes and testing their capability of flight when the lecturer turns around, chucking paperballs at the fan and watch it hit some random person and thereby starting a covert paperball war, screaming in class with like-minded fellow backbencher's (though I'm a middlebencher), and occassionally pretending I need a visit to the ICU because of the brain-damage caused by the wisdom imparted.

Unfortunately for me, plans to study remain plans as I try to recuperate by watching TV, and chatting on the internet. I hope to start today, so wish me luck...

PS. if I dont reply to any mails/messages after october 6th, you know where I am...hope I rest in peace...

Blinded

Beliefs iron wrought,
battered, torn down,
Unable to shield my mind.
Fears unseen,
lurking in veils,
Shaped into my deepest desires.
Cradled by the dirt
I lie unnoticed
Beside the grave of truth.

I’m losing my essence
Trapped in a moment.
My path still unclear
With my life broken.


Leering destiny,
Vengeful death,
They haunt my every step.
Hateful misery,
Sadistic pain,
There seems to be no escape.
Cursed words,
Taunting me,
Pull me towards the dark.

I’m losing my essence
Trapped in a moment.
My path still unclear
With my life broken.

The Beast Within

Tantalizing light from the moon, the stars,
And a hand reaches to the sky.
Deluded by the voices that call me a farce,
I can't hold on to who I am.

Voices, voices I hear,
Resurrected demons relishing fear.
Terrified I flee,
But where can I go, to free myself from me.
Imprisoned fury now unleashed.
My unhealed scars now they bleed.

I can't hear my screams,
when I'm lost inside
I'm losing control,
Why, why?

Accusations I hear,
Of thoughts I detest when my soul disappears.
So hard, so hard I try,
But the monster within, it craves to fly.
At the altar of my past I'm sacrificed.
The unforgiven rejoice my demise.

I can't hear myself scream
When I'm lost within
I'm losing control,
Why, why?

What have I become?

The Chosen

Thanks to positive responses I'm putting up another song I found that I wrote a long time ago...

Torn rose with blood stained thorns,
a lone flower in the crimson sea.
Millions of tears as the heavens mourn
attempting to wash you clean.
Contemplate,
Is it your fate,
are you a sacrifice?

Suffer alone,
you're on your own,
Don't wait for anyone
Broken you go on...

Torn rose with blood stained thorns,
burning in the pyre of hate
The winds of time, blew swift now gone,
No madness yet unmade...
Don't you see,
there is no need
for a sacrifice.

Suffer alone,
you're on your own,
no help will come along.
broken you go on...

Don't follow a path
make your own.
Do what it takes,
force your way through
Make your destiny.